Be that as it may, here I find myself starting another blog after 20 or so years since the last one (livejournal? xanga? not sure which came first...) I´m heeding the advice that one of my therapists from years ago gave me: start writing a journal. I´m a little late but dagnabbit, at least I´m here!
Like most people, the state of global affairs due to Covid-19 has really taken its toll on my mental health. The uncertainty of the future is what has most affected me as of late. My daughter is now 4 1/2 and I worry about her often, but she is one tough cookie (aren´t they all at that age?) and she´s been handling confinement very well. I, on the other hand, have been incredibly bored and have had the toughest time getting off of my ass and doing things that need to be done. I recently visited my GP to request a med change. Years ago I used Vyvanse for my ADD. It helped me in so many ways, but the side effects (at the time) were too much. I was a gym rat and was losing a lot of weight b/c of the appetite supression, so after 6 months I stopped taking it. Well, I requested to get put back on it as my untreated ADD typically leads to my depression and Wellbutrin is no longer efficacious for me (and I´m also a good 20 lbs heavier than the gym-rat days). The insurance I currently have is not nearly as good as that provided to me by the state during my years of civil servitude, therefore Vyvanse was unfortunately out of the question due to cost ($260 a month!). Thus my GP decided to try Adderall and now here I am, starting a new blog, while experiencing for the first time in many years the type of mental clarity I wish my brain could provide to me unaided by pharmaceuticals. It feels good (why can´t that initial euphoria always hang around?!)
I don´t expect to have any kind of audience with this blog, and honestly that isn´t the goal. But if you are a stranger reading this, hello! I´m a mid-30s housewife, happily married with a pre-school aged daughter, and live in Central Florida. Some of my hobbies include gardening, raising butterflies, learning new languages, cooking, and watching backyard wildlife. I´ve had a hard time making friends since moving to Central Florida, so perhaps writing my thoughts down here will be cathartic for me, like talking to a close friend. We´ll see.
Speaking of goals, I´m told having a list of goals is beneficial for the mind, so I´m going to list some of the things I want to accomplish in the coming days and weeks!
- Do one hour of schooling with Elise every weekday
- Finish Mrs. T. rex Diamanté
- Read more history books
- Lift weights 3 times a week, Do cardio 3 times a week
- Continue French and Swedish studies daily for at least 15 minutes each
- Write in my new blog at least once a week
Alright, I think this is a decent start. Keep it short, keep it simple!
À la prochaine!
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